When Times Are Tough II

The prayer of faith will save the sick.

 James 5:14

This has been a pretty rough day.  I've been worried about my daughter, who spent two and a half days in the hospital after a spell of dizziness, pain and shortness of breath.  She was released yesterday after passing every heart test they could throw at her.  A dear friend of mine's young grandson had surgery today to remove a brain tumor, which he came through with flying colors.  Now they wait for the verdict of malignant or non-malignant.  This afternoon I received a phone call from one of my long-time choir members, letting me know that he was retiring from the choir because his illness predicates that he can no longer drive. It was a day of much sadness, but I thought I was handling it all pretty well.

Then I phoned my daughter tonight, only to discover that she had experienced another spell of dizziness today.  Suddenly my armor cracked, and I have dissolved in a puddle of fear, grief, and tears.  How much easier it is to place someone else's loved one in the hands of the Lord; how very difficult to accomplish that for your own child.  I want so badly to hang on, to micromanage, to somehow do something that will make this better - i.e., make it go away - and I can't.  My overactive mind imagines a thousand ways that things can go suddenly wrong, and I will not be there to stop it.  

So how do I turn this over to the Lord?  Hiow do I quench the fear and stem the tide of tears?  I have no clue.  Right now, I am trying to sing to myself an old song from my childhood:

Be not dismayed whate'er betide,
God will take care of you!
Beneath His wings of love abide,
God will take care of you!

God will take care of you,
Through every day o'er all the way;
He will take care of you;
God will take care of you!

In my mind, I am singing, God will take care of her...  The truth is, singing these words is one thing - fully embracing the message of faith and hope is entirely another.  But I have no where else to turn, and so, my precious daughter, I place your life in His hands.  There is no where else that you are safer.  God can do for you this evening what I can not.  I place my hope and trust in His unfailing love.