I have loved you with an everlasting love;
I have drawn you with unfailing kindness.
Jeremiah 31:3
I was raised by a mother who regarded her God as a vengeful tyrant given to temper tantrums when His children didn't do what He told them to. She was always admonishing her children to behave, lest God grab a lightning bolt from the sky (or Poseidon's trident) and hurl it at one of us. God was a "do it or else" Master with a sharp temper and a short fuse.
I bought Mom's portrayal - hook, line and sinker - and tried my best to behave, but was consistently unsuccessful in accomplishing perfection. I grew to hate her God - the one that expected the impossible from me and punished me when I couldn't hand it to Him. i know I have mentioned this before, but it bears repeating: One of the overriding memories of my childhood is the death of a young boy in our church (kicked by a horse), and our mother's proclamation that God took his life because the child and his parents didn't obey Him (examples at the ready).
When I moved away from my childhood home and began exploring Christianity and God for myself, including my own reading of the Bible, I found a Deity that was quite different; so different, in fact, that I had to rework my entire thought process about Him. For example:
- He loved us before we even knew who He was (not because of our performance): ...while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us. (Romans 5:8)
- God is willing to talk together (negotiate?): Come now, and let us reason together, saith the Lord. (Isaiah 1:18)
- God does not want to hurt people who are already hurting: A bruised reed He will not break, and a smoldering wick He will not smother. (Isaiah 42:3)
- He will not turn away anyone who comes: ...whoever comes to me I will never cast out. (John 6:37)
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