Knowing Without Seeing

You never saw Him, yet you love Him.

You still don't see Him, yet you trust Him - 

with laughter and singing.

1 Peter 1:8

My daughter owed me money.  Just when she graduated from law school, looking forward to establishing herself with her new law firm, the bottom dropped out of the economy and her job was deferred - for 18 months!  Her mentor at the firm found her a position as a law clerk in district court, but it was a "free" position - no paycheck involved.  The firm had given her a stipend to live on, and she possibly could make it through if she budgeted wisely, but it certainly was not enough to cover the agent's fees, security deposit and first month's rent on a tiny apartment in NYC.  Thus Mom came to the rescue with a large loan to cover those expenses.  They say that you never lend to your children expecting the money to be returned, but I didn't feel that way.  This was, after all, my beloved daughter whom I had raised and cherished, a child that I totally respected and trusted.  If she said she was going to pay it back, then there was no question as to that happening. 

A few months after her long hiatus was over, and she was getting back on her feet, the first check arrived for twenty percent of the amount she owed.  Several months later, a second check for the same amount.  This last week, a check arrived for the remaining sixty percent of the money.  Penned on the memo line was "Paid in Full!"  Yes, indeed - with laughter and singing, I am sure!  Not at any time during this last year could I ever "see" the money, or even the checkbook, but I knew it was coming.  I trusted the one who was going to provide it.

God has promised me endless blessings - including a home with Him that has been prepared for me from the foundation of the world.  I cannot see that home; indeed, I cannot see Him!!  I talk to Him all the time, and at times of wavering faith, I'll go outside and shout at the heavens in an attempt to get closer to Him and make sure He hears me.  In the final analysis, however, I know He is there and I know He hears me.  And the promised blessings?  I know they are coming, because I trust the One who is going to provide them.